Over the years I have come to accept my shape and imperfections, and now I focus far more on how I feel than on how I look. The cottage I had leased in the island beach community had a full length mirror, which I had ignored with neutrality since my arrival. But one day, I looked at it, and my reflection, and felt horrified to see how short and stocky my legs appeared. I thought I looked better than that! Of course my first thought was that it must be a “trick” mirror, so I had my thin, long legged sister-in-law stand in front of it. Well, her reflection looked the same as she did in reality. For a moment or two I felt some old familiar feelings of body hating and the shrinking of spirit that accompanies them. I heard my mother’s mantra “You don’t have a weight problem, you have a figure problem”.
My body is a problem?
Ah well, maybe there IS more self acceptance work to do, but right now the sun is shining, my bike is outside and there is a beautiful island waiting to be explored. These short, powerful, healthy legs are ready and willing to grace me with a day of bliss!
Kate — Mental Health Nurse